Some steps

Take some steps. Do some things.

Not everything has to be finished or organized. Do what you can, even a few small things and accept that those are what you can do today.

Sometimes, it turns into more. Sometimes, it is enough.

I don’t have much in the way of inspiring advice this evening, other than to share that today was not planned, not organized, not directed to any final achievements. All I did today was make my way through, doing little things, when I wanted to just sit. I accept that it is all I could do today and it is all I need to do today. Low intensity or rest/recovery days are just as important as hero-days in training programs. They make us stronger and set us up for the bigger things and the moments when we are ready to be amazing.

Even my to do list was all over the place today, but it had some “do”s on it. I’m tired today of sustaining the unsustainable for almost a year. Mom, wife, professor, house manager, farmer-in-training, blogger, website-maker, runner, researcher, teacher, mentor, advisor, therapist, friend, …

Just a small glimpse of the most random list of tasks I accomplished, in order:

I snuggled my kids extra and made them giggle with a silly story I made up when we woke up and everyone ended up in bed with me.

I made the beds.

I took care of the farm animals with the kids.

I drank a lot of water and not as much coffee for once. Might not happen again after today.

I did some stuff at work, as much as I could do.

I ran a little and slowly during a seminar.

I cleaned up as much as I could.

I read as much of a book as I could.

I did all the basic must-dos.

I ran again, even less than the first one, but faster.

I threw out some stuff and cleaned up some old emails.

I sat here and wrote this thing.

I will probably shower and brush my teeth, though it hasn’t happened yet.

I will try not to eat half a box of cheez-its, instead opting for something bland, but healthy, and good-habit-building.

Five years from now, I won’t ever be mad that I didn’t do a specific thing today, November 16, 2020. I loved my kids, they were happy, I did what I could do, and all the must dos I had to do, and tomorrow is another day.

Don’t be too hard on yourself. Do what you can do.